THERE IS SO MUCH MORE– more to live for, more joy to be felt, more people to meet, and more beautiful moments to be captured. The journey ahead is filled with endless possibilities.
Hello lovely people. Welcome back.
I have been so busy recently, I have traveled a bit, had a cruise, went to Colorado, and a couple weddings. All good busy things, but all the while I haven’t had much time to sit down and write. When reflecting on my past couple weeks and what washes over me is the feeling of being refreshed. I needed this. I needed a break.
I am one to love social media, I love posting pictures, I love seeing what everyone is up to. But at the same time I hate social media. It doesn’t depict how people really are doing. If I am being completely honest, I haven’t been doing well recently. Change is hard for me and I feel like I am in a season of change.
I recently started therapy because I struggle with telling people how I am feeling, I believe that is why writing has always been an outlet for me. But I have a bad habit of bottling my emotions in until I can’t take it anymore. I didn’t want to hit that so I started seeing a therapist. All is good so far, I have maybe been 3-4 times but it has made things a little bit easier so I will probably keep going. You should to if you are debating it. The worst thing that could happen is it doesn’t help/ work for you and you are still in the same boat you were in already!
By having some time away I have realized so many different things in my life. What I deserve, what I want, and that it is totally okay to be different than the people around me!!!! I need to say that one again, for the people in the back. It is okay to want and be different than the people you surround yourself with!
To start with what I deserve, you deserve it too. You deserve to feel genuinely good. In your mind, body and spirit. We deserve to speak up, to be loud, and to create room at the table and know we are wanted there.We deserve to ask for help and receive it, and to feel supported. We deserve to have others show up for you, on top of that you deserve to show up for yourself. We all deserve one heck of a community. We deserve to make a big deal out of things that are a big deal to us. We deserve to give love and feel love and not second guess any of it. We all deserve to be here.
What we want! We get to choose, that is the beautiful part about this life. This one hits me hard EVERYTIME. The moment we begin to perceive everything good in life is perpetual, the less fearful we are to let go of the things that are no longer serving us. Your life may look like this, when we cling onto things that feel good, it is often because we fear that something so good won’t come around again. We fear that this person, this experience, this feeling, if it goes away, nothing of that magnitude will ever happen again. But we have to realize that it is just not true. Good things are abundant, good feelings are abundant, happiness is infinite, the beauty of this world is boundless and endless.
When struggling it can feel so hard to think of the positive. But I am telling you that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Just slow down and try to notice life. It can really bring you back to Earth when everything around you feels like it is crumbling. Someone once told me, what we believe is what we will experience. But that is up to you to see if it is true.
As for being different this is a good thing. I love the saying,” Enjoy being in the process of becoming.” Which is so nice because I think the people who want the best for themselves and make progress can get caught up in that and means that you aren’t actually present, and you’re not appreciating where you’re at, so just enjoy being while becoming. Enjoy the process of who you are becoming. Growth takes time, and I do believe that it is essential to appreciate every step along the way; every small victory and every lesson learned, it is all apart of your unique path. Embrace your progress, celebrate your efforts, and find joy in the process of becoming the best version of yourself. It is the journey that shapes us, not just the end goal. Enjoy being while becoming.
At the end of the day it’s just you and your silly little life. So go on, enjoy it. Be the person you want to be.
I’m cheering for you always.
Emi Sue Taylor
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